ENVY

Sometimes I just cry with no particular reason.

Or maybe I just get envy by the fact that other people are happy and I am not. Other people are busy laughing and I am not doing the same thing. I love being alone. I love just talking to myself.

That is the main reason I love the Internet. It gives me the opportunity to just enjoy myself. And write also of course.

I used to open friendster profiles of my friends. Sometimes they are also my crushes. I just browse their pictures. Those pictures where they smile. But not all pictures show them alone. Some are picture where they're with somebody else. I don't know how to react but there is a certain kind of feeling I get envy. It hurts me sometimes.

The worse is sometimes, I imagined being with them taking pictures with them. Would they smile also? I don't know.

UNSAID

UNSAID
Lala and Christian Bautista

here i am on my own...
trying hard to let go
wish i could say goodbye
to a love i tried hard to deny...

no... i can't run from the past
i'm holding on...
to a dream that won't last...

truly forever my love is just for you
and now you belong to someone new
dreaming that someday i'd share my life with you
i'm hoping you'd feel the same way too

if only i could turn back time
to the place where i first saw your sweet smile

'coz there in your eyes
i saw something true
and i just can't erase...
this memories of you

truly forever my love is just for you
this heart was never meant for someone new...
dreaming that someday i'd share my life with you
i'm hoping you'd feel the same way too...

and oh my love..... is just for you.....
do you feel it too (do you feel it too)

truly forever... (truly forever)
my baby forever only for you... (only for you)
but now it's too late (but now it's too late)
time did not wait... (time did not wait)
maybe it's better left unsaid... ( it's better left unsaid)

i wish that you...
somehow knew...
that deep inside...
i feel the same way too...

Never Be Replaced

I made this for her, my EX.